Date: Feb. 13, 2004 Time: 7:27 PM My current mood is: Thoughts on a Friday night Ufff I just ate a large veggie sub(no cheese), half a thing of fries and 2 cupcakes. I feel like I'm going to yack. I made an appt. with a GI doctor, unfortunatly it's not till next month. I think I have This. Maybe an ulcer. Who knows. Lately I've been thinking about Jon, and about our relationship. I feel like I mother him, or like he wants me to mother him. Or maybe I'm just being insensetive? How do you know where to draw the line? I had a dream about him awhile ago, where he changed into my exboyfriend Dom. That was really weird. Cause Dom was so annoying, he was wusy and needy. Is Jon wusy and needy? I feel like he always wants me to tell him things...like he'll always say he doesn't know what he wants to do with his life, and wants me to tell him what he should do. And like with school, he says he wants to go but then he'll act like he doesn't know and he wants me to reassure him. Sometimes his lack of self confidence turns me off. But I wouldn't want to say that to him cause then that would make him feel bad about himself :/ The other day we got into a fight cause he started guilt tripping me for not calling him for 2 days...as if I need to check in? I dunno, maybe I'm just in a bad mood. I need to go to the store to buy Valentines stuff but I don't feel like leaving the house. Plus I'm tired. And I feel like I'm going to barf. But I want to buy myself CANDY!!!! God it's friday night and I don't even want to leave the house to buy chocolate. What's wrong with me? I never like going out anymore. I think I'm "settling down". Or maybe just getting phobic of leaving the house. Leave a message Last Entry ~ Next Entry Enter email to occasionally get special or pointless updates: