Date: Jun. 07, 2003 Time: 3:42 PM My current mood is: *cough cough* I've been sick for the past few days, it totally sucks. Ok I finally fixed the Comments link. Except I can't change how it looks, so it still has the black background with purple letters. Speaking of which, I don't like the color of this entry space. What should I change it to? I don't know why but it annoys me...yet I'm not sure what else would match. I think I want just a different hue of blue. Yesterday I was feeling hugely triggered by my medication. It really takes away my appetite so much that I'm unable to consume enough calories, and I don't know if I can continue to use it. All kinds of thoughts keep popping into my head about losing weight and starving myself, and I'm getting really confused. I think the thoughts and start to believe them, and I know I shouldn't. I wrote an email to my therapist (she wanted me to write her anyway), and I brought that up so I'll see what she says. I keep thinking...what if I diet normally? Can I get underweight that way? And if so, would that still be considered bad? I mean if I'm eating 1200 calories a day, that's still within an ok range for healthy dieting...I dunno. Looks like as far as medication goes: Another one bites the dust. I wish I could just find something that WORKS! I had a dream the other night that I killed someone and had no remorse at all, weird! I had a big test in Excel the other day, I'm so nervous about how I did, I hope I did well! I seriously want to put my all into school. So far this hasn't happened, since I didn't even study for that test : Why do I do these things? There's something I want to write about but I don't want. Saying it makes it seem wrong. Nevermind, maybe next time. Leave a message Last Entry ~ Next Entry Enter email to occasionally get special or pointless updates: