Date: May. 16, 2003 Time: 1:21 PM My current mood is: A little worm You wouldn't think it'd be possible to blow up hot chocolate in attempt to make it. But yes, it is, as I just had to wipe it up from all over the bottom of the microwave :P Yeah, I'm an awsome cook. I just got back from Jon's, I slept over. Last night we went around checking out gyms to join. The first place we went to was wicked awesome but expensive. The reason it's expensive is that ALL the classes are free, plus you get a personal trainer for free as often as you want! They even had a rock climbing room, I imagined myself scaling the huge tube in the center, and I was hooked. They also have a nutritionist there, but I don't know if that's free or what. Then we went to the YMCA near Jon's apartment, and it was sooooo disappointing. Going from a kick ass gym to such a...er...shitty place. It smelled like urine. It was absolutly tiny, and kinda icky there. It was cheap though. Jon said it basicly had what he would want, he just wants something plain and cheap, and he probably wouldn't go that often. For me on the other hand, I want to go about 3 times a week, and try different classes, get a personal trainer, etc. Honestly I wouldn't mind joining the cool gym and him joining the crappy one, but when I suggested it he got pouty and said he wanted to work out with me, hehe. We'll have to look around some more. I did some gardening yesterday. As I was digging a hole for flowers, I came across a worm. Immediatly I thought "eww!" and moved my hand away from it, disgustedly. Then I stopped and thought about it... why was I grossed out by a worm? What's wrong with worms? I picked it up and held it in my hand, thinking how in truth, the reason that I had origionaly recoiled was because of societies views. It's just common knowledge to think of worms as gross, but as I held it I brought back memories of my childhood, of holding worms and NOT being grossed out, and I realized that the worm I was holding was actually pretty cute! So I thought about how it's like that with many things, we're all brainwashed to think certain things, programed to have certain fears, when really we're not actually born with those fears and dislikes, it's just taught to us to feel that way. Yesterday I almost purged. I really wanted to, the meal I ate was very triggering. Thinking back perhaps I just ate a normal amount of calories for the day, you know it's so hard to know if I'm eating right. Some days I accidently eat less then I should, because I feel like I'm eating so much. I guess eventually it will get easier, just gotta keep plugging away at it. I can't wait till I join a gym, at least then I will feel a little more comfortable knowing I'm keeping in shape. Leave a message Last Entry ~ Next Entry Enter email to occasionally get special or pointless updates: