Date: May. 03, 2003 Time: 4:28 PM My current mood is: I want to be Wolverine Yesterday I was in such a daze. Jon kept asking me if I was ok, I kept saying I was fine and shrugging him off. I felt so weak and exhausted, that familier "I'm running on empty" feeling. It was so frustrating, I kept trying to act as alive as possible but I kept feeling like I was going to pass out. It made me so mad, cause I feel like I can't even fully participate in me and Jon's relationship cause of lack of food, like I'm only sort of half there. Today I threw up twice but I did manage to get myself to keep some food down, yay. I don't know if I want to get better or what, but I do know I want to be able to feel alive. Even if it's keeping down 800 calories a day, that would be a good improvement. I do want to get better but I just can't seem to get out of this routine. Anyway, yesterday Jon and I went to the mall. He bought some shirts, and bought me a plaid school-girl skirt for our bedroom antics ;) Then we went to the sex shop and bought some theigh highs and something you don't want to know about. Afterwards we went and saw X-Men 2, it was really good! I wish I was a mutant and had super powers, that would rule! I'm such a geek lol. I totally want to be Wolverine. Leave a message Last Entry ~ Next Entry Enter email to occasionally get special or pointless updates: