Date: Feb. 22, 2003 Time: 4:56 PM My current mood is: I quit!!! I did it! I finally quit my job, gave my 2 weeks notice today. Today was the shittiest day at work EVER. Catherine was harassing the shit out of me all day, which was basiclly the catalyst of me giving my notice today, and customers were yelling at me. She threatened to EPN me (give me a written warning) because the reptile room door was open again. Sorry but EVERYONE leaves it open, it's a pain in the fucking ass to leave it closed because it locks, and then you have to search around for the one key that opens it. So she said the next time she finds it open I get EPN'd, which is such bullshit cause like I said, everyone leaves it open so basicly regardless of who leaves it open it's MY fault now! Fucking bitch from hell, I want to kick her ass. I just couldn't take it anymore, she's such a fucking....grrrrr. Anyway, I've been wanting to quit for some time now, this just gave me the perfect opportunity to. I felt really bad telling the head manager though, he really likes me a lot, I was so nervous telling him because I knew he'd be dissappointed with me and not like me anymore, plus they're shorthanded with workers right now so I'm kinda screwing them. But such is life. Finally, I can breath a sigh of relief! Plus, that week off I had being with Jon, my arm started feeling a lot better, now that I'm back to work it's killing me again. My arm just won't get better while working there, I put too much strain on it for it to heal. I need to be able to USE my arm again!! Of course I also need to go to physical therapy for it, but not working there will definitly help it to get better. I'm aware that right now is an awful time to quit your job, the economy is terrible, no work available around here. But I don't care, I just need to relax, unwind, sort things out in my head. Like school, and if I'll be going back this year and all that jazz. Now I can visit Jon too!! Yay! Yes I know I need money to live, but I've saved up a fairly large amount, and while it would be a shame to just blow it by not having a job, I mean....I dunno, what else would I spend it on anyway? I just bought some fishies today! But I puked again today :( I just...I needed something to take the edge off...I mean...I'll stop, I will. Just lately I need to a bit, like I said to take the edge off, to unstress myself. I mean I can still be in recovery but sometimes puke right? It doesn't count right? Ahh it's really hard, cause now that I started again suddenly my puking abilities have doubled, suddenly it only takes me like 2 minutes to puke! I'm not even binging, just puking normal meals. I'm so hungry though at times, why do I crave junkfood all the time?? I try to eat healthy but it just doesn't work out very well. Last night Jon asked me if I'm doing well with my ED, I said yes. He said he's proud of me. I wanted to die from shame. Leave a message Last Entry ~ Next Entry Enter email to occasionally get special or pointless updates: