Date: Nov. 24, 2002 Time: 2:49 AM My current mood is: Wooo! Ba! Eeeey! Woooo! I'm hyper right now. I tried on a million different lipsticks tonight, my sister decided to go through her makeup and give me the stuff she doesn't want. I think the fumes of the lipstick ate away at my brain cells. So I think I will start wearing lipstick, weird! I've been in such a good mood lately, it's starting to scare me! I just...I just want to climb to the top of a hill and belt out "The hiiiiiiills are aliiiiiiiiiiiive with the sound of muuuuuuuusiiiiiiiic!". Ok better yet, I think I'll just sit here. Yes, I think that would be far less....creepy. I want to be Elvira. I went through more of my clothes. I retried on a shirt I was going to return because apparently at the time I thought it was too tight/clingy, but when I tried it on it's not even tight(and I gained weight too!), god I'm such a prude! Seriously, what's up with that? I'm sick of being this androgonous shapeless form. I need to accept my curves, my boobs, etc. Women are supposed to be shapely, not look like advanced stage heroin addicts. Why not show off my body? And if all my entries lately have to do with the way I dress or my skin, I'm aware of this. I know. But hey, I just need to keep pounding into my head some positive body stuff. I really think that's the key to getting better, that I take all the energy I've put into loathing myself, and put it all into positive thoughts. I want to be sexy. I want to flaunt it, I want to look like a porn star. I should be sleeping, but I don't feel like it. I'm mad cause I'm thirsty and I tried to open a thing of juice and I can't open it :( That sucks, I was always the one people would hand jars to so I could open them for them. I wish I could use my left arm damnit! Leave a message Last Entry ~ Next Entry Enter email to occasionally get special or pointless updates: