Date: 2001-04-22 Time: 10:29 p.m. My current mood is: going, going, gone "People come into our life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.. When you figure out which on eit is, you will know what to do for the person. When someone is in your life for a REASON. It is usually to meet a need you have expressed.They have to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at the incovenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes there up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on. When people come into your life for a SEASON. It is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. I bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe It is real! But, only for a season. When people come into your life for a LIFETIME... It is usually to teach you lifetime lessons; things you must upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant." I got that as a forward today. That really struck me, inside. Because when I read the Season one, I immedietly thought of John. That's what he is to me, like a Season. Before I started going out with him, I didn't think I could feel anymore. I felt like my heart turned black, and I was no longer capable of feeling any type of feelings anymore. But now he's proved me wrong. I'm not saying I'm in love and shit, but he proved me wrong about my heart being dead. I guess I know now that I am capable of being in a relationship. But it's too bad he's only a "Season". Today on the phone, he said that he's going home for the summer. I mean, I guess I knew he would be, I was just hoping that for some small reason maybe he would be staying here for the summer. Oh well. So I only have a month left to be with him. That kinda sucks, to have that looming overhead of things. But I gotta just ignore that and have fun with him. We haven't actually talked about it though, about him leaving. I mean he's mentioned it, and I just don't say anything, and neither does he, we both pretend it won't change things which obviously it will, like in terms of never seeing him again. I wonder if he will bring it up ever. You know I almost started crying, thinking about it, but I didn't. Oh well. It was nice while it lasted. Leave a message Last Entry ~ Next Entry Enter email to occasionally get special or pointless updates: