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Date: Jul. 23, 2003
Time: 1:13 PM My current mood is:
I'm going to kick your ass and stab you So far I've lost 4lbs. I feel guilty, I feel like I'm part of the "problem" and not part of the "solution" as far as feminism goes. I feel like I'm giving in to consumer driven culture, taking those diet pills like I should and feeling insecure about my body like I should. I feel like I should be setting a good example, I should be saying "Weight doesn't matter", and showing people what it's like to love yourself. By me striving to be underweight, doesn't that just go right along with what people want us to believe? That the only way to truely be happy is to change ourselves (and buy their products)? I feel like I'm sending the wrong messege to women. I'm agreeing with fashion magazines. I feel like I want to do something. I want to help, I want to make change..my only obstacle: myself. I looked up the feminist organization called NOW, and thought about participating. But I can't, I'm too afraid. I hate going to places by myself, being in a room full of people I don't know. It paralyzes me. Why can't I just be outgoing and care free? Then I'd do lots of things, help causes, volunteer. I'm just too afraid to. |
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