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Date: May. 12, 2003
Time: 8:44 PM My current mood is:
Medication? Blech, I'm binging right now! I'm eating frosting straight from the can, yuuuuuummmm. I've actually been extremely good with my eating, if I've been a lot ever it's mainly fruits, veggies, pretzels, basicly healthy stuff. I don't think I've been binging at all though cause I've constantly with Jon, and we eat almost the same amount. Part of the reason I haven't binged at all too is that I'm very much into eating things with nutrients. Like when I eat white bread for example, it bothers me, cause it should be wheat/grains. I always look at the backs of food, but not to read the calories now, to read what vitains and how much protein is in it. So I mainly stick to healthy food. You know, I'm almost worried about developing Orthorexia. Of course I'm not saying I have it, I'm just saying that it's common for people with EDs to get obsessed with food in one way or another, and to switch disorders. Yesterday(Mothers Day) was ok. I was holding my breath about how my aunt was going to react, to see if she would pretend to be my mom like she did before, but she didn't say anything this time. The thing that made me upset though was that I overheard my sister saying to my dad that she wanted me out of the house. I immediatly went into the room and let them know I heard what they were saying, it really hurt me a lot. Why does my sister have to be so mean and hurtful? Especially on Mothers Day, I already have to deal with my mom being dead, but also be told I'm unwanted here? |
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